So I went to graduation last night. Crazy stuff it has been an entire year sense I graduated from high school, time has flown by. I saw so many people that I love and miss desprately! It was a lot of fun and I believe I got some good/funny pictures. :)

Umm...my alergies are really bad right now, blast that cotton and russian olive trees! But on a happier note my sunburn is getting better, now my face is peeling! :P

I wish that I could write better and have a way with pretty words like Chelsey and Camie do. But I guess that I should not complain, I have been given other gifts I suppose, still I wish I had that gift, that way of making something magical by the way that I write it. ::sigh::

So I am so incredibly sun burnt right now! owie! The backs of my knees my face my arms and my neck (I wore a v-neck shirt!) are all crispy fried, I resemble a lobster. So yeah I spent about 7 hrs outside in the blazing sun for my memorial day. We did a car wash for the American Cancer Society and I was out there from 7:30 am till 2:30 pm, then i went to a picnic but hid in the shade. Hopefully I will not burn so badly when I go to California now, I hope. Sometimes being a red head has it's disadvantages, the skin type that comes with it is no fun!

Anyway for the cancer society we do this thing called Relay for LIfe and I have been doing it for 3 yrs now I think, We did it with one of my good friends who had cancer before she died, now we do it in remembrance of her. We raise money then we go and have someone from our team on the track all night it goes from like 6 pm on friday night till about noon on Saturday. It is a lot of fun I really enjoy doing it and spending time with the people. I will definately remember to wear lots of sunblock this time! lol.

Well I guess I am off for now, got a little heat exhaustion yesterday too and I am exhausted so I am going to put more aloe vera on and rest a little bit.
Hugs

Ok so this is from Sean's journal which is actually from Misha's journal, but I really likes it so here it is.
Heh, I love this quote. :p
"Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

--Rose Walker, in Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaiman

Mind you I don not always feel this way about love, I'm really a sap and such (not a hopeless romantic you hooker), but i liked the quote for some strange reason. So yeah enjoy.

Well being ordered to update, here I am. :) Ummm...I've just been working a lot, working two jobs really isn't much fun! :P

Finally saw The Lord of The Rings, like what 5 months later! Also saw Bubble Boy stupid movie in a funny sort of way.

Oh yeah the exciting news is that I get a vacation (a much needed one at that) I am going to San Diago California, June 4th thru the 9th and am quite excited at the prospect! :)

Must run have to go eat lunch before going to my other job!
Lovies! and Hugs!
~Toshy

WOW! I haven't really put anything up since a week ago! It has been a crazy stressful emotional week.

On saturday morning one of my best friends nieces choked on a piece of bacon. They tried the heimlich on her, but couldn't get it out. They then lifeflighted her to Primary Children's Hospital in Salt Lake, on the way there she went into cardiac arrest and they had to put her on life support. She passed away early sunday morning. His sister lost her 18 month old baby on Mother's day. I had to miss the viewing because they changed the date and I had to work, but the funeral was on saturday morning and I went. Needless to say it was an emotional day. But it was a good funeral, one that brought some peace to those mourning.

I got a new job on Monday, I now work at Robert's craft as a cashier, I started on Wednesday and I really like my job. I love all the fun girls that I work with. The downside is that for the next couple of weeks I work till' close both Friday and Saturday nights (good thing we close at 9, so I'm gone by like 10) and I am on my feet all the time again, it's killing my feet and back. :P

Spent Monday and Tuesday nights and Wednesday morning cleaning the house and it sold Wed afternoon. It's a really weird situation, my mom's best friend's uncle Arthur bought our house. But he only bought it because he needed to put his $ 110,000 for a year so that he doesn't have to deal with taxes and such, so he bought our house as a rental property and is renting it to us, then in a year we are turning around and selling it for what it's worth ~$130,00, and giving him back his $110,000. But it gets even more complicated, my aunt and uncle's house is going into foreclosure at the end of the month, from that time they will have 60 days to be out, so they are going to live in our house and rent it and we are going to move. We just don't know where. And my mom may move somewhere with only my little sister and brother, which puts me out where exactly? SO that's a little bit of stress, except Karl and Aaron's family have both offered me a spare bedroom if needed, so i won't be on the street at least.

What else...Oh yeah, saw Spiderman last week, very cool. Although Star Wars definately beat it! By a long shot, and I'm not even a huge fan, I went and saw it at 6 am Saturday morning, before the funeral for Free! Aaron's dad's work reserved the theater so his whole family, Quince, JD, and I went, loads of fun. Yoda is amazing!

Oh one more sad story, about two little girls that i love, but i will type that up a little later if I have time...

So this is it for now!
Lovies!

umm. ok

Which Kiss Are You?

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand." (from The Velveteen Rabbit)

Weekend basically sucked. That is all I shall say on that subject at least for now.

Think I will take a break from my friends, being around them to much is wearing on me, and I must work around house so that we can sell it.

Stress.

So...tonite I am off to make fun stuff with our apple beer cans we saved up for so long, so that we can take pictures and send them in to Apple Beer.com and win fun stuff. Quincy even wrote a poem. I think that we honestly could single handedly keep these guys in business. I'll let you know how things turn out, we will have pictures, so if i ever get my blasted film developed, you can have some good laughs!

TGIF! I'm off to have a great weekend. Any person with any sense at all would do the same.

TTFN!!!!

So I am having traumadies (it's a word) with my page, my pictures that I had saved on my computer are now gone, completely gone, so I have to find a new picture that is totally me until I find a way to get the one I really love back. Hmmm..maybe after I develop my film and get pretty pics of me in the pretty prom dress I will put one of them up. hmmm...it's a thought.

Anywho...I'm off to find a picture that I like somewhere. ::Scampers off::

Well I got really sick yesterday, a flu bug of sorts, and have decided that fevers bring on strange dreams....dreams that make no sense at all. But then again, when do my dreams make sense anyway?

Went to a MaryKay Makeup party thing last night, I hate those with a bloody passion. They make me feel ugly. Then I went to Natasha's play last night, they did a really cute job for a bunch of 4th graders. Then I went back home and crashed.

Tuesday night I went to see Spiderman, totally awesome. Never go to a movie with Karl! jk! He's just one of those people who has read all the comics and complains at how they change things and leave things out. Just like he did at all the movies that he's read the book to. He makes me chuckle.It was a pretty cool movie though. I enjoyed it.

Better to be hated for who you are then loved for who your not

Anywho, sinse I don't want to re-write basically the same thing to tell you about my weekend, here's my Saturday from my lj:

Saturday was an extremely trying day. Woke up only having laid in bed for 4 almost 5 hours, not really sleeping, but trying to (would've been easier without the blasted nightmares/dreams haunting me) to my sister and brother-in-law bringing their kids over for me to watch. I go outside to pick up my 3 year old niece only to find out that my car had been egged and my bushes toilet papered, luckily they didn't do a very good job. Played with the niece and nephew (3 & 5) for about an hour before Paul shows up to tell me about the car accident. Aaron and Quincy were in a roll over, they are okay, but they rolled like 2 or 3 times and completely totalled the truck. scary. Then my nephew decides to run away, I search the neighborhood for him on the verge of loosing it, then we find him hiding underneath the sink. Argh! I go shopping with Bri, (I hate shopping with a passion) and the cell phone stand in the mall falls on me, knocking me down cutting up my hand and bruising my shoulder. The day didn't get any better fom there. THEN HE decides to be indifferent to me, I can't take this stress, I need more sleep.

Went and saw BIG FAT LIARlat night it was actually really good :), I went with Karl, Dennis, Danny, and Quince, it was loads of fun.

gonna try to get some work done now.
~Toshy

I saw my chelsey yesteday, finally! It only took me a little over a week to see her. :)

Just a little side note: My little bother has got to be one of the cutest little leauge players in the history of the world! He is too adorable, in his red hat that is much too large for him drooping over his eyes. Maybe I'm a little biased, but i love the kid. and I can take credit for who he is becoming too. Poor kid is home with the flu today. :(

It's amazing how pretty I can fell in tan pants, a man's white button down dress shirt knotted in the front, long nails (with little hearts on them) and a mass of curly hair, but I just feel pretty...and happy too. It is a beautiful day, the sun is shining and I plan to go enjoy it and spend some time working in my yard. Tootles! :)