Oh yeah almost forgot something important! My hair is now a mass of little curls! :) I got my hair permed the day before yesterday. My little brother says it looks like Ramen Noodles, lol! But I love it, I needed a change, and it is definatly a change!

p.s. I still have all my nails on! ha! I proved you all wrong, now I am ready to rip them off! Argh so difficult to do anything with them! :)

Saturday was so much fun, amazingly incredibly fun! :) :)

We went golfing early in the morning, up at the golf course in Midway (Heber) it was raining the whole time, and I had never actually golfed before so I was doing terribly, but it was so much fun! :) Then we had lunch at Bear's house. I love Bear he is fabulous, and he always's makes me feel special. :)

After lunch they gave us like almost 3 hrs to get ready, smart boys they are. :) My older sister came and did my hair it looked fabulous :) Princess tiarra and all.

We went to dinner with the prom group at The Roof reastauraunt, it was way yummy. Then all the high schoolers went to the prom, Aaron and I decided not to go. He thought it would be silly for us to go seeing as how we graduated, and he never liked dances anyway. So we went for a walk around temple square and over to the conference center, then he took me on a carriage ride. It was a magical evening, i felt absolutely beautiful and like one of the luckiest girls ever. I truly felt I was playing the part of the princess, it was wonderful. I didn't want the night to end, but like all happy dreams it did. But that's ok, because now I have yet another happy memory to look back on when he is gone.

Hopefully I will be able to put a picture up soon, depending on how they turn out. :)
Hugs to all my friends

I love this sunny weather. :) It makes me happy.

Funny isn't it that sunny weather and rainy weather both make me so happy. I must have a split personalit. :) lol

Well I haven't said much lately becaue I haven't been around. My job has been cut back to part-time so i am currently looking for a new job.Job hunting is no fun. :P The only time I am at a computer is at work, so i will update when I get a chance, but it's been hectic lately.

Don't have time to really write anything today, but I shall try to update about my weekend tomorrow. I am still alive though and I looked Fabulous For prom (dinner) lol! More later! Lovies!

Quote:
When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together.
-- The Notebook, Nicholas Sparks

Ok, so I don't believe in reincarnation or other lives type stuff, but i still liked the quote. Soulmates. Sorry I can be quite the hopeless romantic sometimes.

Do you believe that somewhere out there, you have a so-called "soulmate"? The one that you're supposedly going to spend the rest of eternity with? The one who was made and sent by God especially for you?

I do...sometimes.

I've been told so many times that such a thing doesn't exist, and I believe that someone could be truly happy with someone who wasn't their "soulmate". But I want to believe, I need to believe that the possibility of a soulmate really truly exists. I believe that if two people are meant to be together, then someday they will be, no matter what, love will find the way :) Do you?

From two of my all time favorite movies..on perfect mates and true love...
Prince Henry: Do you really think there is only one perfect mate?
Leonardo da Vinci: As a matter of fact, I do.
Prince Henry: Well then how can you be certain to find them? And if you do find them, I mean really the one for you, or do you only think they are, then what happens if the person you're supposed to be with never appears, or she does but you're too distracted to notice? Leonardo da Vinci: You learn to pay attention.
Prince Henry: And let's say... God puts two people on earth and they are lucky enough to find one another, but one of them gets hit by lightening, well then what, is that it? Or perchance you meet someone new and marry all over again, is that the lady you're supposed to be with, or was it the first? And if so, when the 2 of them are walking side by side, were they both the one for you and you just happened to meet the first one first, or was the second one supposed to be first? And is everything chance? Or are some things meant to be?
Leonardo da Vinci: You cannot leave everything to fate boy. She's got a lot to do, sometimes you must give her a hand.

Buttercup: I fear I'll never see you again.
Westley: Of course you will.
Buttercup: But what if something happens to you?
Westley: Hear this now: I will always come for you.
Buttercup: But how can you be sure?
Westley: This is True Love. You think this happens every day?

Westley: I told you I would always come for you. Why didn't you wait for me?
Buttercup: Well, you were dead.

Westley: Death cannot stop True Love. All it can do is delay it for a while.

Buttercup: I will never doubt again.

Westley:[quietly] There will never be a need.

Right now ...

somebody is very proud of you.

somebody is thinking of you.

somebody is caring about you.

somebody misses you.

somebody wants to talk to you.

somebody wants to be with you.

somebody hopes you aren't in trouble.

somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.

somebody wants to hold your hand.

somebody hopes everything turns out all right.

somebody wants you to be happy.

somebody wants you to find him/her.

somebody is celebrating your successes.

somebody wants to give you a gift.

somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.

somebody loves you.

somebody admires your strength.

somebody is thinking of you and smiling.

somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.

I found this in Celia's blog...I really liked it. :) I may not agree with all of it completely, but I liked it.

:: The Truth About True Love...

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. LOVE CHOOSES YOU. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.


Love always had been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open it will come again.

I ate at the training table restaurant last night.
Eating there makes me chuckle. You order from the phone that is at your table, when your food is done the phone makes noises.
And of course Jo and I jumped into the air acting like fools before we realize that it is only the phone telling us that our food is ready. :)

Was informed last night that we will be going to the Quarry for prom, I don't do the whole rock climbing thing. Croquet sounds so much more inviting.
What happened to the picnic and croquet idea???

Why oh why does blogger hate me today???

So I just found this quote on someone's blogger and laughed hysterically! It is super! :)

"I like hearing myself talk. It is one of my greatest pleasures. I often have long conversations all by myself and I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I'm saying."
~Oscar Wilde

Quote of the day:
It is by loving, and not by being loved, that one can come nearest the soul of another.

I get these from someone else, but I luv em'. I'm a quote junkie!

This weather makes me want to really live in my dream world...
My beautiful log cabin, with the gigantic fireplace,
and the bear skin rug, and leather furniture,
Big oak armoire and coffee table,
snuggled up to my love sipping hot cocoa...

Someday I will have a cabin like that,
My guy friends love the idea,
They like my decorating idea's
because I think like a guy in that aspect sometimes!
(Big leather furniture, animal skins, and large oak tables and such!)

This weather makes me miss the good times spent with my father
i miss deer hunting, and the smells,
my dad's jacket used to smell so good after it had been rained on,
something about this rain/snow, reminds me of the mountains
and all of the fond memories associated with the mountains.

It's snowing in April! Grar!
I guess we need the moisture,
but honestly, it's snowing on the doffodils and tulips.

My new Flip-Flops make me happy. :)
They are not only cute but they make a fun clickety clackety sound when I walk.

I know I know, with this psychotic weather, I'm hearing, where are your shoes girl!
But I like my flip-flops! :P

Okay, I'm personalizing this and making it mine, I still need to fix a few things, but this is as good as it gets for now.

The smell of rain still lingers in the air,
I wish that you were still here, still near,
but you pushed me away and I couldn't stay,
Knowing that I hurt you hurts me deeply,
what if's echo in my head, in my heart
and make me wonder how we could be
...so blind
when my eyes were opened to the light
it blinded me. i clamped my eyes shut
so as not to see, not to feel the pain
now I can see, now i can feel
my eyes have adjusted
to the light you made me see
I feel the pain, the pain that i have
and the pain that i have inflicted
will our love allow these wounds to heal?
...
So that someday, someplace,
when i smell the sent of rain still lingering
in the air, i will smell it and think of you
and we will dance together in the rain
and with a magical kiss with rain pouring down
all around us. all over us
know that some fairy tales can come true?

You know they say that sometimes rain falls right on time to wash away your tears. I guess I was lucky enough for that to happen, we can blame the strange phenomenon in the weather on me, it's matching my moods or was yesterday. I feel refreshed now, still slightly depressed, but better than I was. Rain and the smell of rain do that to me.

The weather has been so strange these past two days...matching to my moods...Sunny, rainy, wind storms, blackouts, snow, hail, sun, rain...constantly changing. I always say Only in Utah, but I recieved a letter from Craig when he arrived in Victoria, he said that the local saying is, "If you don't like the weather in Victoria, wait ten minutes." So I guess it's not only in Utah.

My Quotes of the day:

"If you ever want something badly, let it go. If it comes back to you, then it's yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never yours to begin with."

"If a man is not crazy about you..is not afraid to lose you..then there is where it all should end."

Love requires sharing, sharing requires struggle, struggle requires faith, faith requires love.

"Gravitation can not be held responsible for people falling in love" "How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?" "Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. THAT'S relativity." ...Albert Einstein Quotes

"The greatest happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved, loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves."

Why do you abuse the power which you hold,
Why do you use the key to inflict pain...
...How could my heart have known,
it should not have given you the key
the key to my heart.

Yet how can I regret my heart giving you the key
when memories of you make my entire soul light up?

I see in my soul, in my heart so many rooms
All have doors, it's the conditions of the doors that are different
Some doors are open wide, letting the whole world see,
Some have been ripped off thier hinges and broken to bits
Some are new and polished and have a lock on them,
A lock with a key which i do not hold,
Will my prince come and unlock them for me?

And when he comes will he accept me for me,
The way I am or will he want me to change?
Will his love be conditional or unconditional...
If I don't change will he run and hide, turning his back,
Or will he embrace me the way I am,
Working with me hand in hand
To repair the damage that has been done
Replace the old doors, or maybe just build windows instead...
Can I be strong enough to make it until then?
Someday......