Well I said my goodbyes, cried like a baby and left....

Now part of me is gone...strange thing it is...Karl and I have this connection really, two different people, yet the same...Our spirits are connected, we can talk without ever having to say a word. I will miss those conversations, I will miss that boy.

::scampers off to try not to cry again::

One week...seven days...just isn't long enough.

Karl will be gone one week from today, how I will miss that boy, my "brother from another mother".

Now I will return to telling myself that it will only be two years.

What's a girl to do when all her best friends leave for two years and leave her all alone? Guess I will become a better letter writer, eh?

"Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It's only after you've lost everything that you are free to do anything."

I have put up some new pics because I was informed that my old ones weren't working, so these are a temporary fix. :)

Do you find yourself doing it?
The excitement as you go to your computer and pull up your favorites list and checking multiple times a day to find if anyone has updated their journals or blogs, just hoping to catch a glimpse of what is going on in their life. Do you do it? Do you feel the emotions that they are going through as you read what is up there on that illuminated screen? Do you send them little comments with ::hugs:: and ::smiles::, do you do it too? Has the Internet taken away all your social skills? Do you feel as if you know someone just because you read their blog or journal despite the fact that they live thousands of miles away and you have never actually seen their face? I do. I consider them my friends, a couple of them I would confide the secrets of my heart to, and I have only ever typed messages on a screen too...I've never even heard their voice. I only have three or four people that I "know" from the Internet, but I do it...do you?

What happened to the days when we would call our friends or run over to see them when they are having a bad day, not just send them an e-mail with flowers on it? When you meet someone on the street, not on their web page? What is this world coming too? And do we really mind? Or is it simpler this way???

Even my real friends the ones that I know from school and play, I find myself conversing with them through comments and guest books and IM's more often than seeing some of them, not all mind you some don't even get on the Internet on a constant basis, but some I feel as if the only contact we have is on here? Isn't that odd?

I saw my Chelsa last night, she makes me happy! :) Thank you again girly for sticking up for me. :) You are the bestest. I also saw my Kanno :) She makes me happy too. :)

I'm really confuzed right now so I don't have much to say, because it wouldn't make any sense.....ergh.

bye

Mood: Frustrated

Wowsers, guess I need to write more often! :P I just returned from San Diego, Cailfornia, yesterday. I've been gone sinse the 4th, did ya miss me? lol! You probably didn't know I was gone. :) I had so much fun we bought boogie boards and boogie boarded and body surfed and went to Universal Studios and Sea World and Mexico, Loads of fun! I needed a vacation! Now I need one without my family lol!

I'm still incredibly busy working both jobs and all, but i think I'm finally getting into a routine I sure hope so. :)

Anywho just wanted to say that I am home and alive and now I want to leave the office so I'll catch y'all laters!
Hugs! :)